Twin Flames - Bailey and Zach WillSilververRachel and Lacey
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Bailey and Zach
from USA
posted on 3/30/2010




























Your Name/Nickname.........Bailey                   Age: 32                  Sun sign....Libra

Country........................ USA                              State........... Oklahoma

Occupation..................Student

Email contact..............ZachBailey918@gmail.com

Your twins name/nickname........ Zach             Age:  21                  Sun sign.....Aquarius

Country.........................USA                               State ........... Hawaii
                                                    
Occupation..................Student/Carpenter



Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....) 

We met on a ps3 internet game called Call of Duty Modern Warfare (a military tactical fps game). Let me just start out by saying that I am one of the most feminine girls you could meet, (we're talking pink, heels and makeup) but for some reason my whole life I have had a profound fascinsation with war and weapons, anything from ancient greece to world war 2 to modern day. I am by no means a tomboy and never have been, so this always seemed out of place for me.

One day I was on the game and got into a room (the game puts you in random rooms with 12 other players, the game is international so there are literally thousands going on at once) as soon as I got into the the game I heard Zach's voice immediatly. Its very hard to describe but I felt instantly attracted to his voice, to me it was perfect in everyway. My heart and chest felt funny for no reason. I can't say that I recognized his voice because I had never met him, but the frequency of it just attracted me like nothing else. It was everything I found beautiful and comfortable, like it was made for me. I had never in my life payed attention to anyone's voice, (The vain side of me told myself that it was probably one of those things where a person has a nice voice but they are not that attractive) but I didnt care because it just seemed different and I just KNEW he was different. I listened for awhile and even things he was saying attracted me to him. I sent him a message and we
began messaging between games. At the end of the night we got into a chat room and talked all night until morning. I felt like I had known him forever and we never ran out of things to talk about. Not only that but I felt instant trust with this total stranger, which confused me because I had the worst problem of not being able to trust anyone because of my upbringing. We noticed so many things in common that it did'nt make sense as these were not normal things, these were things that happened in our life that at times we had no control over. He was so much younger but I felt he was always on the same level as me. I could always count on him to understand me when no one else could. I have always felt like a stranger in my family and to other people, and I was extremely self sufficient and never needed anyone for advice or to make me feel better or reassure me. I was used to people not being able to understand me and felt I had to dumb myself down for most people to relate to me, but with him I could be myself in every way and that alone is a gift if you can find that with anyone, and would've been enough for me.


Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?  

His voice was first was the first thing that drew me to him, and how we never needed to have a "getting-to-know-you period" we just knew each other inside and out right away, it was completely effortless.

Being more specific, our relationship has this magic feel to it, like I feel it's not something many people even know about. (It is an impossible relationship for me to have with any other human being but him and I know this absolutely and deep inside) It is the definition of complete selfless love without even a thought of hesitation of giving him everything I have and my life if necessary.

I love how he is always willing to try and resolve things and never puts blame on me or plays any type of mind game like most people (even our own family) do without realizing it. How I can be myself and he loves every part of me unconditionally. How we never need to have those superficial feelings of wondering if the other would ever leave us heartbroken, because we know with absolute certainty that it won't ever happen. How he trusts me more than anyone and isn't afraid to let his walls down and be vulnerable to me knowing that I would never hurt him. How he always sees things the same way as me without ever speaking or discussing it, and how intelligent and reasonable he is. How we cannot be sexually tempted by any other man or woman on the planet without putting any effort into trying to not to be (we have been together a year and a half and have'nt met yet in person). The most important thing is the thing that is unexplainable, the electricity between us even though we are so far away, and the feeling that we can't be without hearing each other every couple of hours until we get home and are able to get online.


How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?  

The most significant thing is the spirtuality, we defintely were'nt into that at all. We never even knew about twin flames for the longest time. We went most of our relationship not being able to explain anything and wondering how in gods name is it possible we are exactly alike, having the same likes and dislikes on EVERYTHING, and feeling we were the same person instintively. We felt like somewhere there was a mistake, that when souls were handed out we accidently got the same one. I began to feel like his life was a weird paradox of mine, which I could'nt understand because you are always told "you are unique and different from everyone else, and there is no one else like you" but our identicle personalities conflicted with this. We also felt ourselves communicating throughout the day without having to talk. This was very hard to understand because both of us are very logical and skeptical people who like to think about things until we have a scientific explanation of why something is, but there was no explanation for any of it. After finding out Zach was my twin flame we both have a new spirituality that has changed everything. I will never look at anything the same way again and my way of thinking is changed forever. I have never felt more loved and understood in my entire life. I have found true happiness that's not temporary or superficial like before. I know real love and I am nicer and more patient with others because of what he gives me and what I know now. Most important I feel closer to god and feel reassured that he loves me so much to put Zach into my life. I feel like with Zach I am more efficiant in everything and I can be a better person and even the rules that god lays out in the bible seem entirley possible to obey whereas before they seemed impossible to follow wholeheartedly.


Do you share many synchronicitis together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us? 

There are so many synchronicities I really dont know where to start....When I was little my mother gave me two dried up seahorses for whatever reason (zach's mother also gave him two seahorses) They became my favorite sea animal and I would spends hours reading books about them. Come to find out Zach's friends had nicknamed him seahorse (also for whatever reason lol). Our mother's are both Rh negative (a rare blood type) One of the craziest things is our birth chart, we are 11 years apart but yet no matter how you look at it we are compatable compared to astrological and chinese horoscopes even. Apparantly libra and aquarius are both air signs and highly compatable with each other. Also the snake (me) and the dragon (him) are also highly compatable. If he had been born mere hours earlier he would've been a capricorn which is not that compatible with me, and I was supposed to be born a scorpio which is not that compatible with his sign but I was born t
wo weeks early making me a libra. As of right now we have a cavatity in the EXACT same place in our mouth inbetween the exact same teeth and it bothers us the same times. We both did the same sports in school, baseball and track. We have the same tastes in cars, clothes, music and food, we dislike the same things for the same reasons. For example we like to eat our french fries with ketchep salt and pepper, and have to make sure when eating waffles each sqaure has some butter with very little syrup. As children we were never really sick but always caught strep throat even if we were'nt around the sick person which caused dip pits to be scarred into the back of our throats. We have almost exact genetic backgrounds. We sleep together on webcam every night, one night I had a dream and in it Zach was standing next to me and I asked him a question, at that exact moment I woke up instantly to hear him answering my question in his sleep, and it was plain as day. We both had a dog that looked the exact same and was the same breed, half jack russel and half unknown. The video game we play is COD modern warfare 2, its online and when your character dies you can spectate the character of anyone left alive. When I watch Zach play, its indescribable, I feel like im controlling his character, he always does exactly what I would do and how I would do it. We have the exact same reckless playing style. There have actually been people in the game that ask us if we are related (because our screename is almost the same and our playing style is exact in every way) For other people to notice this is insane.


If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here. 

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Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.  

Well we have heard of time slowing down with your twin but with us it seems to go by faster. When we start talking 10 hours seems like only 10 minutes. We have been together for almost a year and a half and it seems like only a couple of monthes. I have always noticed that I could pick up on things really easily. I would'nt have called it psychic just intuitive. I have had dreams where they come to pass in life etc., but since I have met Zach the weird things that happen to us has increased in everyway. He gives me butterflies all the time, and when we are separated I can always feel when he is concentrated on me. We have proven this hundreds of times through texts sent at the same minute saying the same things or calling each other the same time and not even hearing a ring because it is the same second. He always knows when im upset even when I try to hide it and sound happy as I can tell when he is. We always seem to feel the same physically, like having alot of energy at the same time or be tired even though we have had alot of sleep and it doesn't make sense. We have telepathy with each other and its been there since the begininng. The longer we are together the stronger and more effortless it becomes. It's so strong that if I have to wake up early I have to try not to think about him too much or he will wake up and then I feel bad that he might not have gotten enought sleep. He just feels so familiar to me. I have always felt like I can even read his intentions. I have never felt so close to another person in my life. When I think of him I dont see male/female between us, its hard to explain but I'm just so close to him that it feels like it goes beyond human boundaries and limitations such as gender. At the same time we noticed that we have every type of feeling for each other like parental , best friend, family, brother/sister husband/wife, its as if he can represent everyone I need in my life and I just feel like I know him as well as I know myself. If we have a rare disagreement than I just think about how I would want him to act towards me and I do it to him and it is always exactly what he wants or needs. It has never failed. One thing I have noticed is that the strange things that happen between us go way beyond probability , they simply cannot be explained and cannot be coincidence because the chances of these things happening the way they do over and over is way to much to be just coincedence.


Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below. 

I am positive we have spent other lifetimes together, I feel it so strongly. This might sound completely crazy but we feel that we spent our last lives together in the 30's or 40's as very close friends as I was a man, we were german soldiers in world war two and I passed away somehow by drowning in a factory type of setting. I don't know how we know this but we feel it very strongly about it. When we watch ww2 footage there is just something about it that gives me goosebumps. The music and clothes of that time period are so familiar, and Zach made a comment once, he said he felt like he could go pick up some of the german weapons and know exactly how to operate them. I knew exactly what he meant. No one would want to be on the german side in ww2 and I know it ended tragically for us. What rienforces this for me is some of my first memories when I was little were memories where I felt my prescence as being that of male (if my last life was that of a male theoretically would'nt it be possible to still have that residual imprint at the beginning of my next life?) and if anyone knows me they would tell you I'm all female. As I got older the male presence faded away along with the drowning imprints but left me with a kind of male logic and preferences that doesnt match my completely feminine being, hence the war games.


How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion? 

To be honest my life up until him was just like I was living in black and white, and when I met him everything exploded into color. I was very critical of anyone I dated, only seeing their flaws. It seemed like no one was ever good enough because they never lived up to what I wanted. When I ended up getting married it was because I was just settling because I realized no one was ever gonna be what I wanted or understand me so I might as well get married to a nice guy. My marriage was based on a lie and he developed a drug problem so I left and moved into my own place and just basically told myself I was done looking for something that did'nt exist and decided I would probably be alone the rest of my life because I was picky and stubborn about my beliefs and hard to get along with because I never let anyone too close and had major walls. I honestly just did'nt care if I died the next day bc I felt an intense boredom with my life with no ambition to do anything because I felt like I was'nt learning anything about life that I did'nt already feel I knew, it was boredom more than anything else. I guess I finally just accepted things the way they were and quit trying to force things into happening. I had no problems getting a boyfriend but it just seemed like a hassle that I did'nt want to deal with anymore.(I had had a very hard challenging life up until then and had no interest in adding to it) I guess I just let everything go and came to the descision that I would most likely just be by myself and for once I was fine with that because when I was with someone I preferred to be by myself anyway which did'nt make a whole lot of sense because I was a social person but it had its limits.


Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time? 

YES!!! He told me casually very early on in our relationship that when he was a teenager he started to see 11 11 randomly, enough to where he noticed it was happening and told his brother about it, and when we met he said he was seeing it everywhere all the time and brought it up to me several times, at which point I then starting seeing it as well and it became and inside joke between us (I never noticed it myself until he brought it up). We had the feeling that it meant something and it was irratating because we wanted to know. One day a couple of months ago (because the weird stuff that was happening to us was going so beyond weird) I felt the need to google soulmate and in the article I picked told of twin flames. When I read it I was blown away ("blown away" is a very big understatement). On a link of question and andswers someone was talkin about twin flames and 11 11 and I remember I just started crying because we had no idea that other people  were experiencing this too, and all the weird things that had happened to us suddenly made complete sense. Also I feel a force out there was blocking us from knowing about twin flames because of our skeptical nature. We feel if we had known about twinflames before we met each other we might be trying to convince ourselves that we were twin flames and then be skeptical the rest of our lives. By not knowing, we were shown after - after a long enough time to know for certain thats what we were. He was born 1/20/89 1+20+8+9=38 3+8=11. I was born on October 11. The day we met was 9/5/08 9+5+8= 22 which is a master number and divided in half is 2 elevens or 11 11. I am 11 years older than him.


Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)  

Yes I definetly did. From a very young age I found that I could read adults ulterior motives on why they would do or say things and was able to put my self in others shoes to gain their perspective. I always felt slightly different from those around me. When I was little I had a sense of invulnerability that I wasnt gonna die anytime soon and that I didnt need to worry about it. I almost got run over and I wasn't really scared afterwards. I had spiritual dreams that were religious in nature but I hardly went to church or knew anyting about god. Whenever something bad happened I would get a feeling that if I stuck with it something significant would happen to me (did'nt know it was a relationship, and I was tested alot! lol). From what Zach has told me, he has felt the same types of feelings when he was young. We felt like 50yr olds in younger bodies because of the understanding we had when we were younger that you need experience to get to, but we never had.


What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
 
You absolutey can't force it or try to speed it up, we definetly were'nt looking for anyone. We both came to the conclusion that we were weird and no one was ever going to understand us or live up to our expectations and to just accepted it. I always felt so alone in life even when I was in a relationship and that something was missing from my being and nothing could ever make me content. I felt like I was happy with some things at times but it would always wane. I never could shake the feeling of a missing piece I was born without (never expecting it to be an actual person). I felt like life was a play that everyone else had their lines to except me. I just came to the point that I was gonna quit trying so hard and just go with it and be happy with myself. I never imagined I would meet zach and it happened when I least expected it and was'nt looking for it. If you are in a relationship like this I would say the most important thing to make it work is to let your guard down and any walls and ego that protect you in any other relationship (this relationship is one of a kind and cannot be handled the same way that is necessary in regular relationships). Also, have an understanding between each other that there is no need for mind games, getting even or taking advantage of the person, and if there is a problem, be open to talk it out with compassion and love for the other. Above all be grateful and humble for what you have because not many people have these types of relationships.


If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here? 

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Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soulmate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?

Yes I believe I was the one to wake Zach up to the possibilities of what we could have together, but since then we have learned things together as one unit. From the begining I just naturally had no secret agenda and could for the first time in my life be myself without effort. I felt love for him right away before I even knew it myself. We never told each other what time to get online it just seemed like we always did within 10 minutes of each other. I could'nt be away from him, it hurt so bad when I was. I was so scared of feeling these feelings for someone I just met but I could'nt control it. Our friends and family were telling us we were just infatuated or it was puppy love, we both KNEW it was'nt but could'nt seem to explain it to people without it lookin like we had some weird obsession with each other (which society says is unhealty). We always got along perfectly, TOO perfectly I thought. Both of us have always had a high intelligence level for our age so when talking to people, we were used to people not understanding us. But with each other we always got what the other was talking about without the need to ever explain. From the beginning we loved each other and told each other, after 2 or 3 weeks we knew we wanted a relationship with each other even though we had an ocean between us (he in hawaii and me in oklahoma) and knew that we would'nt be able to see each other for a very long time (he can't leave the state of Hawaii until a court hearing for a bad descion he made when he was 16!it's been 5 years!) We could'nt bear to be apart so we both quit working for awhile so we could be together all day long and sleep together everynight through webcam. We never had to make compromises because we were so exactly alike,everthing was just so smooth. The one problem we had was jelousy. We loved each other so much that we didnt want to think of each other with anyone else (I was married before). Ex's were still trying to contact him and I was upset of the way he was handling it (even though when I thought about it, I knew I would've done the same). We would get so jealous and we did'nt know what to do with it so we would have these standoffs, but since we were the same we always did the same thing, ignore the other. Eventually we broke up because we were letting pride and ego into our beautifully pure relationship. It hurts so bad to even reflect on this period in my life. I thought that day-by-day things would get better, boy was I wrong! The pain and utter despair grew and grew every single day. I could'nt eat. I could'nt sleep until I passed out from exhaustion, then I would sleep for days. I would be talking fine with my mother and then without warning erupt into uncontrollable sobbing . I thought of him every single minute of every waking hour, and I could feel him doing the same. I wrote him all the time showing him I was'nt giving up on him, but he would never answer my emails, I wrote them anyway. I constantly felt as if I was having a heart attack with intense chest pains and I went from 125 lbs to 97. There are no words in the english language to describe my pain so I wont bother. Let's just say that when I was on the very egde of insanity and anguish and knowing I might die by my recent habits (I did'nt care). Finally he answered one of my emails and we have never looked back. We addressed every issue and let go of everything controlled by pride. We know the consequences of not being together and we make sure not to fall into old patterns. I can honestly say our relationship couldn't get any more stable and grounded and we know now that his court problems are for a reason, we had to have time to be free of bad karma before we could come together. It won't be long now until he will be with me in the physical (as the courts have suddenly started to move along!?) and it's beyond anything I can even imagine when I'll finally get to reunite with my twin. Thinking back to previous relationships with others, I was always selfish and thinking of myself, I know now that I could'nt feel true love without Zach and that by thinking of myself I was thinking of him and putting him first, which is what I have always done.

How would you describe your spiritual beliefs..? 

Very spiritual nowdays :D


Are you artistic..................................................?  No

Do you believe in reincarnation.........................?  Yes


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