Cynthia and Eugene
posted on 11/3/2010
Your Name/Nickname.........Cynthia Age: 38 Sun sign....Virgo
Country........................USA State........... GA
Your Twins name/nickname........ Eugene Age: 54 Sun sign.....Taurus
Country......................... USA State........... CA
Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....)
He was my father's neighbor. He came over to offer his condolences after my father's death.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?
I feel such an intense love towards him. Even though he doesn't show his love back to me. He did and then he retracted. Even though he is the kind of person my head would tell me to avoid, I can't stop loving him. It is excruciating. To be so intensely emotionally bound to someone who is insensitive to me, is painful beyond words. How can I still be in love? That is UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?
I have split from my husband over this feeling. We have a 10 month old boy and two older daughters (12 and 7). My husband wasn't a good husband anyway. It was a one-sided relationship, yet I would have stayed and been blissfully unaware of love I might have had for someone else. I had a stable life before meeting my twin soul. It all fell apart after that. I lost all of my money (including the inheritance my father left). I lost my home. I lost my car. I lost a good credit standing. It all came down. I am living in my mother's basement and I can't stand the cigarette smoke. Now my twin soul leaves me without love, too!
Do you share many synchronicities together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us?
We both started a family around the same time and met our spouses around the same time.
If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here.
He says he loves his wife (psychics and friends tell me otherwise) and he wants to stay with her. A psychic told me that he is afraid to love and feels better with someone he doesn't really love so he can keep his sense of self. Perhaps he is a control freak. I wanted to put our children together (he has two teenage daughters) and make a family, but he didn't respond to that. He keeps saying how he doesn't know me. It's true. We have never had a relationship, but I feel so intensely toward him.
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.
First of all, driving away from him a year and seven months ago was the most traumatic thing that ever happened to me (aside from learning he won't love me back). One time we had a phone conversation and for no apparent reason he hung up on me at exactly 11:11am my time. I have been awakened at night sometimes and felt his presence. I never wake up an hour after I have fallen asleep on my own. There were times when I looked at my messages right after he sent one without any other notification.
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below.
I definitely feel that I have felt his presence in my lifetime. Just a sense, that's all. I was told by psychics that we knew each other in a past life and used to heal people together. It is a very deep connection.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion?
My life was stable and the "Mary Poppins" homemaker/mother life. Nothing out of the ordinary. If I found another man interesting I ignored that feeling and went on being a loyal wifey. I walked a straight line. My father passed away and then we met. I had to fly across the country by emergency and met him the next day.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time?
I noticed 11:11 the time he hung up on me and I often notice it on the clock throughout my days. I also notice when it's 11:23 often. I used to see the 33rd minute of the hour on the clock for four years before I met him. I talked about that phenomenon and people said that was the year Christ was crucified and that puzzled me. It still hasn't gone away. Christ wants to get through to me. Is it a sign that he'll have a mission for me/us and will he deliver me from this torture?
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)
I have wondered if we are supposed to show others how belief systems should be broken down to a better understanding of life and more healing times. He mentioned feeling that there was something more he was supposed to do, but wasn't very detailed about it.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
Just because someone is your twin soul doesn't mean you should take abuse from that person or be the only one to be giving love. If you get a "runner" leave it alone. Cope as best you can with the hurt, move on, and find your enjoyment in life elsewhere. Easier said than done. I KNOW!!! Don't commit suicide. Be strong damn it!
If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here?
A place to see the outcome down the road. Can I add an update down the road? Just to see what I have done to cope in the long run I guess. It may be helpful for those hurting so badly like me.
Brendan's Answer: Absolutely, YES! Just resubmit with your name and email address using the same method as you did before and we can either add to, say - the free form comments section. We're flexible :)
Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soulmate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?
Evidently, I have not been able to awaken him. He does wonder what "it" is between us, but does not have the internet or any apparent interest in pursuing any research on the matter.
How would you describe your spiritual beliefs....buddhist sorta
Are you artistic.................................................? Yes
Do you believe in reincarnation...................? Yes
Free Form Comments - How can I explain loving someone so deeply without ever having had a relationship with them? The kind of love that makes you want to rearrange your life (no matter how hard)? How can I explain my unbelievable heartache when he won't love me back? I hate thinking about suicide. I would never do that to my three children, I just hate thinking about it. I have sensed how deep, warm, and enthusiastic the connection is. I yearn to no end!!!!!!!!!!
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