L. and A.
posted on 4/10/2010
Your Name/Nickname.........L. Age: 24 Sun sign....Taurus/Aries Cusp
Country........................ USA State........... CA
Your twins name/nickname........ A. Age: 18 Sun sign.....Cancer
Country.........................USA State ........... CA
Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....)
We met through a mutual friend.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?
The first time I looked into his eyes, there was a knowledge there, it was something he seemed unaware of, but I couldn't shake the sense there was something about him. I would've normally never looked twice at him, but for some reason I felt compelled to do so. When he is in the room, I know where he is, even if I close my eyes. When he touches me, just a friendly touch, I am affected like I've never been affected in my life. Deep inside, I can tell we are "of the same breed." There is nothing that doesn't draw me to him.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?
It has been both negative and positive. First of all, I never thought I'd find an individual who made me feel the way he does, especially without trying. I never thought I could feel such attraction and deep emotion for someone who looks like him, in a way, this was liberating, like a final liberation from the things I used to think life was about. It has been negative because I am very much in love with him, but he has decided to run away from me. The worst part, is that now we have met, the spiritual connection is stronger. I have to say, I've always had a strong spiritual connection with him without knowing it, but now I easily can feel his strong emotions, sometimes I even know what it is that he's upset about. I cannot ever forget about him, like I would for a normal man.
Do you share many synchronicitis together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us?
We are on the same life path, we have the same events to go through, or rather, things to realize. I know that, and I knew that somehow the day we met. I knew I was farther along. I wanted to help him. I believe we share dreams, but this unfortunately can't be confirmed, due to the current disconnection.
If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here.
I believe he does know it, and he fears it. I can relate, whatever we are, it is a very powerful thing. When he is in the room, there is like a hum in the air... it's so strange. Even though he cannot feel it as consciously as I do, I can tell he feels it at some level. It is his fear of this intensity that separates us. He doesn't want to speak to me again. The last words he said to me were, "I'm sorry." I don't know if he'll ever allow himself to fully realize our connection. I think he tries very hard to deny it, but that makes sense because I would've too, if I were him at that stage of development. I'm not sure why we met now, but hopefully it will positively affect the future.
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.
I've had MANY strange phenomena in my life. I always tried to ignore it, pretend it didn't exist, write off coincidences... but eventually, I had no choice but to realize the truth. Meeting A. was that truth beyond a shadow of a doubt. I've always had a slight psychic ability, mainly I get visions, or I have very vivid dreams. Since meeting A. we have shared many dreams together. One time, after A. decided to ignore me, I experienced a prolonged vision... overlapping right in front of my eyes... it was like a part of my brain was showing me what I was supposed to be feeling... but I knew who the communication was coming from, it was A. I felt everything, my body was told what to feel, and I felt it. Never have I felt so trapped in something, so forced, but at the same time, so loved. These feelings lasted for around 10 minutes, then faded. There were a few times where I felt like I was in A's body... and I could see where he was. It was very intensely emotional. Recently I had a dream that was lucid, which I never have, and I tried to escape from it, but could not, and it was in this dream that A demanded to kiss me and look me in the eyes (something he told me he was afraid to do in real life and he never did)... and suddenly I realized looking into his eyes in this dream, he was so vividly depicted, his eyes so real, with all the beautiful sparkling lights I see in them somehow. I could see his feelings, I could feel his feelings. The natural empathy we have in real life was there in the dream. I knew he was dreaming it too. Since then a few weeks have passed, and I've only felt once for a brief moment an emotion from him, and it was gone before I could really judge what it was.
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below.
I do not know about A, but I know this is not the only lifetime we have spent together. In fact, if you want to know the truth, I know that A. killed me when he met me in the last life we lived together. I had nightmares of it as a child, and I never really understood them. In the nightmares, A. looked almost opposite what he does now. I actually met a boy that looked exactly like this dream character, and it turns out he's not A. at all, in fact their personalities are totally polar opposite. But when I first met A, I knew he was the man from my dreams. I think we have lived several lifetimes together, most notably the one where I was killed, and one where we were fraternal twin sisters.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion?
I was looking for him. I knew he was coming somehow. I always had this anticipant feeling inside of me. I always felt our loving spiritual connection, I had such a longing for it. When I was a small child, I would wait by my bedroom window, far past the time everyone had gone to sleep, and I'd wait for him to come get me. Inside my heart always knew A. was out there somehow. Prior to our reunion, a voice came into my head that was not my own, that told me to move to CA. I obeyed because I knew the voice was something akin to the voice of god. If I wouldn't have moved out here, I wouldn't have met A. In addition, A's circumstances for meeting me are stranger, but in the interest of keeping our identities secret, I cannot tell them.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time?
Well, I do like the number 11. Past karmic experiences is definitely an issue, I believe, especially for A. A. and I are not the type that pay attention to dates, so I am not sure how this fits into place.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)
Yes, both of us have felt this way, although A. was a a little uncertain of his, and just felt he was here to learn on a massive scale. I also feel the same, but I have a desire to help people, I do not know how, but I hope my art is enough.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
I'm not sure. A. and I have bad luck. In general it takes a lot of pain for us to learn, we are stubborn, so the advice I'd give to people like us, is probably not universal.
If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here?
Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soulmate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?
I can only hope so. I know A. awakened a great deal in me, I can only hope I did the same for him.
How would you describe your spiritual beliefs..?
I have my own beliefs, taken from many sources.
Are you artistic..................................................? Yes
Do you believe in reincarnation.........................? Yes
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