L. and J.
From The USA
posted on 8/17/2010
Your Name/Nickname......... L. Age: 31 Sun sign....Gemini
Country........................US A State........... MO
Your Twins name/nickname........ J. Age: 38 Sun sign.....Leo
Country......................... USA State........... MO
Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....)
We first met in the first grade when his family moved to my hometown. I was instantly "in love" with him and remember being teased by my best friend, as friends do at that age. As time went on, we became close friends, playing ball, going skating, walking around town, etc, but my feelings only grew for him. He would date other girls and then come to me for advice when it didnt work out. Mutual friends and even relatives of similar age told us multiple times we needed to date, which always made him blush. Then my family moved. I was heartbroken.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?
It's hard for me to describe. It's like this invisible pull to be near him that is almost painful when I have to resist it. His touch sends an electric chill through me, his eyes draw me in... Even after being separated for years it's as though no time has passed between us at all. He is the closest I have ever been to feeling at home.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?
When I lost him the first time, I was devastated, but I began to see him periodically in my dreams as if we were checking in on each other. The first time we were reunited when I was attending college, it was instantly magnetic, but we were both too scared to take that first step. This time, nothing is holding either one of us back. He is the only person that has been able to collapse every single wall I have ever built to protect my heart. He sees through my facades and isn't afraid to call me out on them. He is the only person that I can say I trust implicitly....no questions. After giving up on ever feeling whole again, my heart is now bursting at the seams. I have made multiple positive changes in my life and feel 20 times lighter.
Do you share many synchronicities together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us?
We both married other people around the same time frame and had our children only a year apart. His family and mine have crossed paths several times and never even known it. We have lived within 100 miles of eachother for years. While married, my family and I resided in the same town as his brother. We have both had similar issues with our respective ex-spouses.
If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here.
At this time, I am in the middle of a divorce and unable to get my own home for me and my children. We still reside over 100 miles apart, but make every effort to be together when we are able to arrange it.
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.
Since reunited this last time, I have not had any further communicative "dreams" of him. In fact, a couple weeks before we met, I was told that he was coming. I have found, though, that I have a difficult time reading him at times, which is abnormal for me. I know he has some conflicting issues with his current religious beliefs and mine and feel that may be the issue. When we are separated, the biggest thing on our minds is when we can make arangements to rectify the situation. We have a difficult time being apart to the point that if too much time passes it becomes unbearable for me. He can read me like a book, which I hate to admit at times, because he is very aware of it. I would almost say he knows me better than I know myself. I know him equally as well, but he is more unwilling to admit it.
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below.
I know this isn't the only incarnation we have been together. In the two instances that I am able to recall, however, he died shortly into the relationship. I still carry the pain from those losses.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion?
Thats a hard question. Having known he was my match from such a young age, I was only 6, I have spent the majority of my life knowing that he was out there somewhere. In order to go on with my life, I built walls and barriers to protect that part of my heart and keep it safe for him. In order to go on, I had to tell myself that I was wrong, that I was just a kid with a crush, that things like that don't happen. I lost track of him after briefly connecting in college and gave up. I resigned myself to the idea that it would never be. I married, had children and when I realized that I just couldn't pretend any more, he tracked me down. About 18 months prior I came to the realization that my marriage was over and that I needed to change. I was not myself any more, I was a hollowed out shell and I decided I couldn't live the lie anymore.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time?
I am continually seeing 11 11 everywhere.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)
We both know that we are meant for some higher purpose and have been struggling to find our place.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
When you know that person is out there, there is no greater pain in your soul...your very essence aches for that other half. Don't give up...don't build walls because they are hard to tear down. If you have been in bad relationships previously, you will have to let go of the fear if you want to be able to move forward. It's hard, but you have to. Your twin will not hurt you and getting this through a thick skull can be difficult, but the sooner you do, the better. They will see through to your core...your very essence, so if you feel you have anything to hide that you don't want them to see...you are not ready for this intense of a relationship. Not only are you an open book for them, you have to face your own demons. If you can't do that...it will not work.
If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here?
Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soulmate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?
I think we have awakened aspects in each other.
How would you describe your spiritual beliefs..?
I'm eclectic, he is christian
Are you artistic..................................................? Yes
Do you believe in reincarnation.........................? Yes
Free Form Comments -
I first met him in the first grade and was instantly in love with him. As time passed we became close friends, the older we got, the closer it seemed. I was always his confidante and he mine. We enjoyed all the same things and could spend hours walking around town or just talking. My family moved just prior to my eighth grade year and I was devastated. I never got to say goodbye to him. From then on, it was as if we would check in on each other periodically. I would see him in my dreams and we would talk. They were always so vivid and I would awake with the feeling of his touch on my skin. They always bothered me because I felt so much loss upon waking. While I attended college, we reconnected briefly, but both of us, feeling the intensity of our connection now, were too afraid to take that first leap of faith. Once again I lost track of him and forced myself to go on with my life. I tried once to contact him, however, was told by his mother that I was never to contact him again. Once again, I was devastated. After that I gave up trying, but the dreams continued as did the feeling of loss. Then, out of the blue, he finds me and we began talking. We have spoken every day since although we have only seen each other a handful of times. I no longer feel fragmented. I feel whole for the first time in ages. It is as if no time has passed between us at all. He accepts me for who I am, no conditions, no nothing. He has broken through every insecurity I have and every fear that has surfaced. I have found out that he classifies his life into "before I left" and "after I left". He has told me that after I left his life was never the same and that things just seemed to start going wrong. There have been so many times that our paths could have easily crossed, but they never did. The courses our lives have taken independently are so simliar and I know that from here on out, they are joined.
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