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Leanda and D.
From England
posted on 9/7/2010

Your Name/Nickname......... Leanda                    Age: 30               Sun sign....Cancer

Country........................England                             State........... N/A

Occupation..................Spiritual Medium


Your Twins name/nickname........ D.                     Age:  28                Sun sign.....Gemini
Country......................... England                          State........... N/A


Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....) 

Internet and friend.

Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?  

When we first got chatting, I found this overwhleming pull within me, I see only his inner light and this draws me more n more to him.

How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?  

Although I had always searched for deep love, I never really understood how far love actually goes I now realise what it is i am looking for as in that deeper connection with someone I also feel the need to follow my dreams more.

Do you share many synchronicities together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us? 

We found out that we shared the same experiences at the same ages, n when we met our lives were very much the same, number synchronicites and reoccuring animals like birds always surfcace when we are about to reconnect.

If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here. 

I know I have found my twin. It's not somehting i have any doubt over its a knowing i have within me and canot explain the depth of it , he pulls away as his emotions are too intense and the ego always comes into play.

Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.  

Together we have had the abiltiy to finish each others sentances. When i am with him i feel healed on many levels. Somedays I feel sad and know this is how he is feeling and when i'm ok i know its because he too is ok. When we haven't seen each other for months i find when i think of us reconnecting it draws him back to me and reconnect in physical form. The first time we seperated we stayed apart for four months, but then we reconnected on magical dates such as 01 01 2010 and 20 02 2010 and so on.

Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below. 

I know we have shared another lifetime. I feel a very close connection to him. For instance in this lifetime i lost my brother and i met my twin on his anniversary, the pain i felt losing my brother is the same pain i face losing my twin and being without him. I believe in a past life my twin was my brother as i have the same connection to him as i do my brother in this life.

How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion? 

I was always seeking something and never knew what that something was no matter how hard i tried i couldn't fill that void. I knew i had always seeked love but when i found my twin i had love in abundance. My life has changed, my faith has grown and i have become more drawn to god. When i met my twin he was very much into god. Me, as a spiritual medium needed that bond with god and twin provided me with the answers and info i needed. Because of my twin my fiath in god grew. Each time my twin has left and returned my faith in god grows more. I know god led me to this man. My twin has changed my life on many levels and has always been my teacher. This is something i storngly believe for without him i know i wouldn't have got this far. I have learnt alot about myself as a person and came face to face with many of my insecurities through him, and have changed things about myself i dont like.

Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time? 

With me and my twin there is always a pattern, the dates 1, 2 and 3 come up a lot. Mainly 1's and 2's. Zeros play a part also. For instance if we see each other on a1 date it will be 01 01, or 10, the number 3 is a number we part on. I had a reference to him being my bird with a broken wing due to his state of mind and health. The first time we parted i saw a bird with a broken wing that day. Days before he returned i had a bird within my home. I knew my bird had come home and he, he did. When me and my twin would disconnect a bird with a borken wing would appear.

Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)  

I have always know i have been spiritual but as a child i never understood it. I never had an interest in healing but meeting my twin i have discovered i have the healing gift. My twin is very sensitive but doesn't believe he has great power. He knows his lifes purpose is to spread gods word whatever that may be for him. My twin has healed me in so many ways my life feels done n complete when im in his presence. I know he has the healing gift and i believe his purpose is to lead me closer to god.

What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
Since meeting my twin, i have found friends and come across people in the same situation. They act as guides for me i guess. For instance me and my friend who i just got to know met up one day. We both got chattin and it turned out that we both had met men who were so alike. We also discovered me met around the same time and saw twins on the months of the year etc. Their personalities were exactly the same and both put us through the same thing. That day we saw each other we both had disconnected with our twins. It's like this now with people i come into contcat with. When me and my twin connect i inform my friends that their twin will reappear as the sync is once again present. When my friends who are with their twins are connecting trust me, i wont be connecting at the same time. It's only when they all disconnect which is around the same time that i know im going to be reconnecting with my twin, the advice is give ........ its all to easy to get caught up in the great love of it and everything u have focused on goes out the window. All u see and feel and know is the deep love u share. They are not enjoying the love for what it gives them and they are not gratful for having the ability to be able to follow their desires and become the person they are becoming. More often than not, the pain that follows is because they have tried to rush the feeling and become too needy , thus resultin in a withdrawal from the other twin which then leads to pain and disbelief

If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here? 

Because I am still learning about my twin at this moment i have found anything that hasn't helped me.

Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soulmate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?

Meeting my twin has awakened me yes. I feel things i never thought possible. I have been led to a higher sense of understanding and forgiveness knows no bounds with my twin i am able to see his inner light which i find very hard with other people at times. I have become an even more sensitive person not just spiritually but emotionally too and physcially. I have found the zest for life and know that there is more to this world and a person than anyone can even imagine.

How would you describe your spiritual beliefs..? 

Christian spiritualist.

Are you artistic..................................................?  Yes

Do you believe in reincarnation.........................?  Yes

Free Form Comments - 

In march 2009 life was fnatastic. I was a progressing spiritual medium who had fallen in love with life and the spirit world,  although my spiritual journey had been a hard struggle i had found myself to be very satisifed within on mnay levels. However, through the trauma of losing my brother years prior i still felt that part of me was missing. One day i had been to a spiritual evening and on the way home i had been chatting to my friends about how i wanted to meet someone who was "just like me" someone who felt the way i did about things and situations and people. That evening a friend had popped up on line and we got chatting. He wasn't what u call a friend but someone who was  just part of my list on the social network site of fb. Anyway, we got chatting and i found my self smiling and my temperature kept fluctuating every time he spoke. The next day i was keen to get chatting to him again. For the first time in my life i had found sumone very, very interesting but yet he wasnt any different to anyone else in what he was saying. I had this pull and every time he spoke it was electric. Kind of like the pull u have when carrying a child. He just kept tugging at me pulling me closer.

After a couple of weeks i found myself developing feelings for this man. It was absurd but it was like i knew him inside out and he had knew me. None of us could understand the pull we had or the fact that we had shared so many life experiences at the same times in our lives. At the time we spoke we both had been goin through cancer scares. It was crazy because we found ourselves finishing each others sentances. After a while we both knew what we had to do. We needed to meet to see if the attraction we felt was real. The day of meeting him we were both worried. What if it would change? What if we didn't like each other physically? The day we met and i saw him i knew i was in heaven. He bowled me over. To me, he was just "perfect." When he hugged me i was so overcome with emotion that i cried. I felt joy and pain within my heart and i didnt understand this. All i knew was that it felt like i had lost someone and found them. It was like i had that something that was missing within me, (losing my kid brother.) I lost a part of me too but here this man had somehow returned it to me. But how?????????????? what was it?????? we spent the whole day together and we couldn't keep our hands off eachother. It felt so perfect so right and for the first time in my life i had been totally at ease with a man. All my insecurities about my physical body never even came into it. I felt like this man was in fact my husband. It's crazy, we laid there just hugging, drinking each other in with our eyes too scared to blink in case he would disappear before me. For hours we gazed into each others eyes getting lost. I was hypnotized. The feeling was euphoric. Wow is this what love felt like???????? That evening he had returned home and i hated releasing him from my arms. That night in bed i suddenly felt "lost the euphoria."  What I had felt was slowly fading and was replaced with gloomy thoughts. Once again that sad feeling began to return that feeling of something missing , the next day i tried hard to contact him eventually. When i did, he said he felt lost and scared and didn't like the effect i was having on him. When he was away from me, his old insecurities like mine began resurfacing; all the old fears of what love had done to him in the past. So... we met again and again and again, each time we would lay holding eachother drinking eachother in and both feel totally at ease. We hated being apart even to go to the toilet. Food and drink never even came into the equation. We shut out the world totally happy with just eachother, but once again when we parted - the pain would resurface and the ego would come into play because of his problems in life. The fact that he was damaged by what life and people had done to him i nicknamed him my bird with the broken wing.

Nobody had ever understood him like i did and no one ever understood him like me. We were like two lost souls who had been brought together. He had very strong fiath in god but at times he lost his faith and his faith endeared him even more to me. The world from his eyes seemed beautiful and unreal and life with him was like a fantasy beyond my wildest dreams. When he was away from me he couldn't cope and he hated the bad feelings it gave him. In august i saw him one day before i was due to go on my holidays. I was running late because i was stopped by a bird with a broken wing and i tried to help it. Sadly... i couldnt and needed help eventually the rspca came and took away the bird. That was the last time i saw my twin that year. In september i had heard he was involved with another woman. The pain i felt from this was indescribeable. But... the fears n the feelings we felt n what we had done to each other whilst being apart had destroyed us. Every day he would be there in my head and no matter how much i tried to move on, i couldnt. All i knew was what i had felt and i didnt want to go back to feeling lost. I didn't want to face the empty feeling. Every day i would see him looking at me and it hurt... it really hurt. Then Decmeber after boxing day, i had found a bird in my home, with no explanation as to how it got in. The onyl thought i had was that my bird had come home. A few days later on the 31st i had wished him happy new year and the next day he replied and we met up. This was the start of the synchronicites.

We met on the 01 01 2010, and again on the 20 01 201, and the 21 01 2010, the 10 02 2010 and so on. When March came, we ended again - this was 03 03 , i had no idea about twin flames or that they even existed. I was explaining to a friend about the connection we had and how i felt we were the same person born from the same soul. When i looked it up, my twin had mental health issues due to the pain life had inflcited upon him and i found being without my twin had brought back all the old issues i had buried so much so that i too ended up with mental health issues. The pain from losing my brother was always being bought back up every time i had lost my twin. I knew this was part of the lesson i needed oty learn. Awhile back i was diagnosed with post traumatic stress. Funnily enough my twin was also diagnosed 2 months later. I have met many people who have the same experiences as me and all at the time i met my twin they too i believe have met there twin so i am now able to help them. I dont see my twin now. There is another pattern because when they start to seperate and all start to around the same time, i know my twin is returning. My twin has been my teacher, one who has brought me close to god; one who has steered me towards healing as a profession. I never believed in the power of healing until i met my twin. Whenever i see a bird with a broken wing it lets me know we are going to seperate again. Once again... number sequences still play an important part and i know each time my twin flame returns he teaches more each time about my life path and my self as a person. I have changed so much and have done a lot of soul searching although at times, the pain from him makes me feel like i wish i had never met him. I know that i am so gratful he was brought into my life, for without him i wouldnt know what real unconditional love meant. Without him i would not be knowing what my soul wants, and i wouldnt know how to be true to myself. It sems no matter how much pain n heartache he inflicts upon me, i still have this unconditional forgiveness for him because i know i have seen his inner light. The eyes are the gateway to the soul and he literally touched mine. I don't have to ask if he is my twin, i already KNOW with twins u have a knowing no one can understand. Friends will try and deter u because they see the sadness and hurt u face and what effect they have on u. They canot understand because they don't share that connection u have but inside you just KNOW. My twin is my earth angel and i know next time he returns n he will, that he will teach me even more and that is what our soul is to learn after all.

blessings to all xx

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