Twin Flames and Soulmates
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Love Letters
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Hi Everyone,

I wanted to create a new page titled love letters.  Before I met Brendan in person and early on in our relationship we had a site where we'd write to one another as an archive of our love.  I wanted to make our current love letters public as we write them.  I wanted to create this page because I feel the need to connect  on all levels with him....including email.  This will be my public email.    We'll see how this works.







01/07/2010

DEAR BRENDAN,



















Love, Paula


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12/10/2009

Dear Paula,

Whenever I get lonely or start missing you, I envision myself worshipping you just the way I did when we were together in the physical. I believe you remember quite well, how our rituals went :) In fact, I know you do ;)

Anyway, I would walk up to you and kiss you and then get down on my knees, even while you were still standing. Just before I would begin, I would always look up to see your beautiful smiling eyes and face beaming down at me as you ran your fingers through my hair.

Then, I would lift your shirt up to an area just below your breasts and then press my face into your belly to kiss your navel. While kissing your navel, with both arms wrapped around you, I would hold you firmly. This Paula - IS MY HOME WITH YOU. Like my chest is your home with me, your belly or navel is where you keep your LOVE, ENERGY and WISDOM. This is where my home is.

THIS IS MY HOME WITH YOU.

During our time apart, I will continue doing this meditation and even journey to you so that you can feel me worship you. WHY? Because I love  you so much, most beatiful. That is my nickname for you, MOST BEAUTIFUL :)

Thank you for sharing these awesome poems with me. I knew about the one by Robert Frost but the latest one, by E. E. Cummings was like a breath of fresh air.

What a great poem that was that you dedicated to me, you FLAME :)

Most Beautiful - you are divine


























12/08/2009  (Another 11:11)

Dear Brendan,

I was reading some poems and this one reminded me of us.  I love you and miss you very much.  It's called:

I Carry Your Heart With Me by E. E. Cummings

I carry your heart with me
(I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it
(Anywhere I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)

I want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing
is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart
(I carry it in my heart)

I love you Beautiful Flame.

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11/23/2009

Dear Paula

I was thinking about how much I miss you - especially since I have been able to shake the ice off these wings that have enabled me to fly to you. It is because of your strength and patience that I can feel you again. If you were not the divine compliment for me, you wouldn't be able to handle me and vice/versa. This is why we're gonna make it. However, there will be tough times (like the one I just went through) and all of the ones we both go through daily.

I was thinking about something to do for your new lovely page that you created. However, I think the Black Eyed Peas said it best with their song, "Meet Me Halfway." Here are the lyrics to that song. When you read them, think of me. You are most beautiful in everyway.

BTW - I can't wait to worship you again. What a great day that will be. It's coming :)

Here are those lyrics my love:

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

Cool,
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, what's up, it use to used to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl what's up, yo what's up, what's up, what's up

Can you meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl, I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galaxies
Just tell me where to go, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, I, I, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
Wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway... way
(I'll meet you halfway

Can you meet me half way)
Right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and I, for you and I, for for for you and I,
For for for you and I, for for you and I, for you and I

Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way
Can you meet me half way

Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where I'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

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Dear Brendan,

     Have you ever really listened to the sound of a locomotive?  It's such a lonely sound.  The whistle grows closer screaming its loudest then slowly fades into the distance as it passes by.  There are many miles left behind and many miles yet to go.  I hear it as I think of you.

     I feel like the locomotive I've just described.  I feel the loneliness of it's cry.  I feel all of my being screaming out for you in the night.  Do you hear me?  Can you feel me?  I can feel you and even hear you when I close my eyes and concentrate.  I hear the scream of your soul with mine.

     I have the most intense desire to feel you near me.  I want to be with you so much...in every way.  I want to feel your warmth.  I want to feel your flesh against mine.  I want to feel our arms wrapped around each other tight.  I want to feel our kisses...because there so tender and grow more passionate with each one.

     I can feel you now and the feeling is strong.  Stay with me tonight....my love.   I need to feel you here.  I love you and want to rest my love on you for a little while.
Muaaaaaaaaaah love. 
Love,    Paula