Collapsing Duality...Our Story
Your
Name/Nickname....... Brendan Age: 37 Sun sign.... Leo
Country........................USA State/Province........ MA
Occupation................. Engineer
Email contact.............. webmaster@collapsingduality.com
Your twins name/nickname........ Paula Age: 41 Sun sign.....Leo
Country.......................USA State/Province.........OH
Occupation................ Registered Nurse
Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....) We met one night on the internet over six months ago, now. We began chatting and hit it off like two old friends might do. There was an immediate connection between the two of us - we could feel it. From there we began to build our own online home using the Second Life medium as a means. Everyday we would meet up and go out in the second life virtual community and pick out new furniture for our home.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame? Paula has this way about her that attracts me to her like nobody else ever could. She is divine feminine in my eyes and I remind her of this all the time. She is also the most giving person I have ever known - and she doesn't expect in return even though I do so, 3-fold.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life? I never thought I would find the "perfect match" for me but something - this feeling inside, kept telling me to keep searching. Now that I have found her, I know we will be together forever - after all - we have been together since the beginning.
Do you share many synchronicitis together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us? Oh yes. We buy each other the same things, call each other at the same time(because we still live apart), text each other often at exactly the same time, and can feel each others moods even though we live a thousand miles apart.
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another. I've always had certain psychic abilities, like dreaming of things - major events, before they happen, but since meeting Paula, they have become greatly enhanced. We are able to visit each other in our dream states, through meditation, and by simply concentrating on the other while keeping an open heart and open mind.
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below. A little while back I began to think of the oldest memory I had. It was of a little girl in a dress that was standing in front of a group of trees. There was a house beyond it with a sort of driveway in between. So I got the idea to ask Paula what her oldest memory was (without telling her mine) and she described a little boy in the same setting and same backdrop as I described above. She recalls that the boys name was Bud and the girls name was Kiddie. At this point in time we believe that we were either childhood friends or brother and sister. We're still uncover the truths of these memories.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion? The last "big thing" to happen to me and my family was the death of my sister in November of 2007. She was only 45. I learned what it was like to lose somebody so close. For contributions, I built a website in comemoration of her life, complete with a guest book, family photos, and music.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time?
The numbers 11 11 are popping up everywhere in our lives. I never noticed it until Paula mentioned it to me. The Fibonaccie Sequence may be a factor as well. This sequence of numbers - when we apply the date in which we first met - fits perfectly into the first spiral of the Fibonacci Sequence.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.) Ever since I can remember, there has been a feeling of something I have to do. I don't know precisely what, but I feel, now that I have met Paula, that I am getting really close to receiving an answer.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships? If you are still searching for that special somebody, don't give up. Also, examine your life and be ruthless in your critique.
If you have found your twin flame or soulmate, in the beginning you will notice that a lot of karma will come bubbling up - you must deal with this as quickly as you know how or it will come in between you and the greatest love of your life. The best way I have found in dealing with the karma is to either meditate on it or simply Let It Go.
Artwork done by Brendan
About Brendan
Outside of Collapsing Duality, Brendan is an RF Engineer who has been working in the telecom industry since 1995. Prior to that period, he served a tour of 4 years in the US Navy. As a Navy Radioman, Top Secret Cleared, he served terms in San Diego, Ca; NavComTelDetSta in Maine, and aboard a Fast Frigate during Operation Support Democracy, The Cuban Exodus of 94 and Bosnia.
During High School and College, just before joining the military, Brendan studied art and architecture. During that period, between 1989 and 1991, after a prophetic vision of a deity that called him to Heaven, he began to write and paint about his experience with this Angelic being. At night, he would pray she come to him again. But, through painting and poetry he expressed the experience and painted every day in an attempt to describe something that was...well...indescribable!
In between painting and writing, Brendan also began experiments with meditation. Without knowing exactly what to do or where to begin, he experimented and experimented until he unknowingly had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening. The experience was an Earth shattering one, to him. Having discovered this power that can be awakened, simply by meditating, the search to find that being who came to him in his dreams...was on!
As a child, Brendan was different right from the start. During elementary school days when other kids were taking out books about Word War 2 and Wild Life, he would spend most of his time reading about the planets, ghosts and extra-terrestrials.
Having had several encounters as a child with beings not from here and nobody that would listen to him, he became more interested in the not so popular stories of the late 1970's.
Strange encounters and psychic experiences were nothing new for Brendan - even at the age of 7. During family get togethers and cocktail parties, Brendan would be called in to do readings for his parents guests. Before those reading, the non-believers would test him by asking him questions that he could not possibly know. But, when Brendan proved himself and quieted the skeptics, he would leave them dumbfounded.
When Brendan was an infant, his Father used to stand over his crib, according to his mother. He would say, "son, make me a million dollars." Over and over again he said this until one day, his father and mother inherited just over a million dollars. A lot of money for 1971/2 standars!
As the story goes: While pregnant with Brendan - summer 71 - 2 friends visited Cape Cod from North Carolina to see his mother. They came up for 2 reasons: 1 to sun on the beaches and 2, to see a world renowned psychic up in Boston. During that trip to Boston, upon sitting down with the psychic, she looked at his mothers friend and instead of getting a reading about her life, she was told: "You have a friend who is pregnant with a boy and the boy will possess psycic powers beyond belief."
That was it. The psycic ended her reading with a reading about Brendan who had not even been born yet. The psychic closed shop for the day and his mothers 2 friends returned to tell the story.
Brendan and Paula - 10/7/2009
Brendan and Paula - March and April, 2008
Your
Name/Nickname....... Paula Age: 41 Sun sign.... Leo
Country........................USA State/Province........ OH (now in MA w/Brendan)
Occupation................. RN
Email contact.............. webmaster@collapsingduality.com
Your twins name/nickname........ Brendan Age: 37 Sun sign.....Leo
Country.......................USA State/Province.........MA
Occupation................ Engineer
Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....) Brendan and I met online, on an online internet game called, Second Life. We began chatting as if we had known each other forever. From the beginning it was as if he was an old and dear friend. We could talk about anything and everything. I remember being drawn to each phrase he would type and my heart would beat wildly. I was attracted to him from the start even though I was unaware, at that point in time, what he really looked like in real life. I loved getting to know him before ever laying eyes on him. I began to fall in love with the man and not the image. We would meet up online every night and talk for hours until one night, he typed the words, "your phone rings." That was the beginning of talking to the man behind the keyboard, on the telephone. We laughed for the longest time that night. I think I was so surprised I couldn't hardly do anything else but laugh. We've continued this for almost 7 months along with seeing each other every chance we get. My twin heart finally found me after 40 long years and I'm so grateful.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame? Oh wow! I could go on and on with this question or I could just write "everything" but I'll be more specific for the purpose of answering this questionaire. Brendan has this way about him that draws my body, heart and soul to him. He is my home! I've never felt more secure or loved in all my life. I can see so much beauty in his eyes. His soul wraps me up in love and I can feel him with me, always.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life? I can finally say that my heart/soul finally has ended the eternal search I've been on, all of my life. There's this knowing I've developed, a security, and even the spiritual side of me has grown 10-fold. I'm learning so much from the universe and how it works. I'm humbled by this experience and am greatful, God, is allowing me to experience it. Meeting Brendan has changed my life because I have the greatest desire to be the best being I can be for all to feel this kind of love and inner peace. I can be myself and not have to hide any part of me. It's great to be loved for me and not who he thinks I should turn into in the future. (No Superwoman here LOL!)
Do you share many synchronicitis together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us? I know that Brendan wrote about the texts, emails, and a few other things but I want to use this line for some synchronicities that we've recently shared. One of those is what I'll refer to as, "the wave of love." This is a heat and a wave of energy felt just below the navel, on the right side and deep within the body. We've been miles apart and even when we're together, this occurs. We both feel it in the same area and the heat gets so intense sometimes it's almost painful - (a delightful pain, I might add.) Another woman blogged about this "wave of love," which was only another confirmation of what we have experienced. Just yesterday we noted how our fingerprints were so similar. He pointed out the way the pads of our fingers are alike but when we inspected our prints even closer, we realized they were pretty much, identical. There were differences too but a great revelation the universe shared with us. When we share a synchronicity together it is usually confirmed by an outside source, later.
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another. Sometimes we aren't even aware of the telepathy we've shared until later. We're able to reach each other through thoughts, meditations and even dreams. I've had some really amazing experiences that I'll share as the site comes together. I am so aware of my surrounding. Colors are more vivid, sounds I ignored (white noise) I can now hear very clearly, even food tastes better. I can feel him every minute when we're separated physically and when we are together, time really does seem to slow down.
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below. We've spent many lifetimes together in some form or another. We've recently shared one of those lifetimes as he explained in his profile. I believe we have shared this Twin Flame relationship many times and are finally in the final stages of this relationship. By this, I mean that we're on a spiritual journey this time to reach those who are searching for that place in their heart that just hasn't been filled. We're hoping to share with many people how the whole existence of Twin Flames works, through our own experience and not just what you read about how it is supposed to be. We believe that every Twin Flame knows when they've met their counterpart, no matter which lifetime they are in.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion? Back in 2005, my life as I knew it was changed so very drastically. My financial security was ripped from me entirely. I was now caring for 3 people on one income and couldn't bare the spiral downward that my life was taking. I eventually broke down. After I recovered, a few months later is when I started looking inward to seek a more spiritual existance. It's taken me 3 years to really see the true essence of my own spiritual beauty and become peaceful within myself.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonaccie Sequence as it relates to date/time? The numbers 11 11 and 22 pop up on many receipts when Brendan and I are together. I get a big kick out of that.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.) I've always been driven to find the purpose of life and what I am here for. I believe that when I met Brendan, I began to realize this purpose. We have a calling being revealed to us on a daily basis and are seeking all the avenues in order to callapse duality as it has been known. I know we can all do this with the help of lots of others who are willing to work and see it through to fruition.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships? Only one thing...YOU WILL DEFINITELY KNOW WHO THAT TWIN FLAME IS WHEN YOU FIND THEM, NO QUESTION ABOUT IT. Done't let the magnitude of this relationship scare you because it's not an easy one. It will probably be the hardest relationship you have ever had, in terms of some of the karma you'll feel from each other as you go through a total collapse of life as you know it. But it is all worth it!!
Artwork by Paula
Pat Metheny Deep House Mix
Paula's Profile
Brendan's Profile
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Ever wonder who this "Spirit Mother" we have always talked about - was? Well, it took awhile because she appears to us in so many ways, but spirit mother, I can honestly say, I know her personally :) She taught me how to ride my bike when I was 5 years old. Spirit Mother IS MY SISTER! Spirit Mother, is and has always been behind Paula and I reuniting. I used to say to Paula, in our conversations, before ever even meeting, that "my sister has to be behind this." Wouldn't you know it, it is her :) Spirit Mother, passed away 2 months before Paula and I met - November of 2007. She was only 45 and nobody knows why she passed - a medical mystery or a spiritual known - well...I know :) She is also integral in our reunification with our higher selves and will be working with us 'til its full fruition.
I love you Sis - B ;) and Paula has heard you - she loves you as well. We thank you
SPIRIT MOTHER
These are our are 4 little ones. Eryn on the left, is 10. Kemper on the right is 9. Lily, next to Kemper is 5 and Molly,next to Eryn is 2.
Pre-Twin Flame Photo Gallery - who we were and where we've been
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Idavathian - Paula's Higher Self
before the merge of lower and higher spirit self.
Pastel done by Paula.
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Protilius - Brendan's Higher Self
before the merge of lower and higher spirit self.
Sketch done by Brendan
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