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Your Name/Nickname.........Alisa Age: N/A Sun sign... Taurus
Country........................ USA State........... OK
Occupation..................Healthcare
Email contact...............Bottomlinroutcomes@gmail.com
Your Twins name/nickname........Marco Age: N/A Sun sign.... Taurus
Country.........................USA State......... OK
Occupation..................Healthcare
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Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....)
Through a third party. I saw him before from a distance. Then he approached me about working where I was at. I agreed.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?
Hard to explain, I never even knew something like this could happen. I just knew something had taken place. First alone conversation lasted forever and he shared a painful secret that he never had before. Another meeting unexpected , the same unending conversation and strong electrical currents were felt. It's not things, but more this involuntary exchange that happens without words. Very uncomfortable at first.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?
It has made me more aware of my physical being and more aware of my intuition. After we came together sexually, I lost alot of weight quickly. We were separated due to things beyond our control very soon after. I became sick immediately and have found it hard to complete basic functions. It feels crazy. Coping better at times. This experience at this stage for me has become a revelation. You see everything with new meaning/ understanding. Everything is clarified.
Do you share many synchronicities together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us?
After holidays we talked. Didn't know each other well. Both discovered we had lost a loved one and we had difficulty during holidays. We were alone but had same reaction. We isolated and laid on couch and watched TV alone. We are same sign. One notable difference is our age which I never ever ever imagined happening. Both our birth years is a repeating number. We finish each others thoughts and sentences. We are both quick tempered but avoid being angry when together. We can sense each other before we see each other. We have both felt uncomfortable... him more than me. We both knew we would be intimate but didn't know when. When in same proximity everything/everyone fades. BUT he was in a relationship.
If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here.
He knows deep within, but fights it and I did also at first. The age difference for one. But doesn't affect chemistry at all. He had to leave. After first separation, he reached out in almost desperation. I haven't heard from him in 12 days. At moments, late at night, pain was almost unbearable. Then I prayed that God would be with him and comfort him. I prayed that God would use this bizarre beautiful experience to teach me surrender, acceptance, and give me the ability to love past pain. I picture him often. I still feel in tune. More so in my spirit. We both have painful childhoods. We both feel alone in this world and don't connect to the familiar people we have known our entire life. It's difficult to explain. It was a joining that was inevitable. We both felt that. We both have work to do. It is my hope and desire it will be accomplished. I know I am at that spot, but unsure of him and that could be in part to what I brought forth by my initial pushing away. So .....
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.
Well we both knew we would join sexually at some point. Recently with no contact I feel he has blocked me, but late a few nights ago I felt so much inner pain. I felt his energy in a sexual way and I pictured him in my mind. That is when I prayed. It's like I feel his thoughts touching me in spurts. I don't know. Maybe I've gone off the deep end. Time feels accelerated. I started researching to try and understand what is happening. Everything happened so fast and just as fast he's not here. But I can't shake it. I asked someone if souls could speak with us unaware. Right now I don't know. It may be more difficult for him. Don't see how. He said God works in mysterious ways for reasons understood later and to help us gain back control and see clearly. I agree. Our emotions affect the others. It is just so strange. So much so quick. It is difficult to reconcile to logic. I miss his presence. I miss his voice so much. I need to feel his touch so his spirit can hear mine speak. I feel like I'm opening more away from him at this point. I feel the need to reach out to him across time and distance and envelop his essence, remove his pain, and give him a sense of wholeness/comfort - let him know he is not alone. Another side effect is that when I hear his voice I get jittery, heart races, hands tremble. I think what blew my mind was being able to find specific definition, side effects, common denominators, for an experience I had NEVER heard of and conflicts with my belief system. I do feel a stronger sense of intuition toward and about him. We both have protective instincts toward one another.
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below.
I don't know. We have commented on how although it is not our normal nature, we laid ourselves wide open without hesitation. We both felt a knowing. Like trust was already in place. Like those things you usually have to build, already existed. Second deep talk we both cried after sharing pain over a similar loss. I'm not usually this explicit, but that first sexual contact was so real and I can still remember how he felt first entering me physically. We both drew our breath in and it felt stuck inside. I can't explain it. Then it felt like we had been that way many times. Intense/but without effort. We felt the connection before it happened physically.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion?
Passing time is what it seems like now. I have love and connections but never on every level instantly. I had another close connection that "developed". He seemed to take away the sorrow I felt, but I never was able to let my guard down and neither could he. He wanted control and that led to judgement. I have been guilty of the same behavior. There was one other person that I felt a strong instant connection. Strong physical connection. Involuntary also but not as fierce. We are still drawn in times of inner pain. We communicated really strong at first but we were young and had too much baggage together. We ended up being a painful reminder of each others wounds/ weaknesses. He attempted to control me and I couldn't allow that. He needed to feel in complete control. and feeling out of control was unbearable for me.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonacci Sequence as it relates to date/time?
I don't even know what that means. We are both Taurus, neither of us have strong intimate friends, neither of us bonded with what family we have, we both feel on a more universal level. Our birth years are a repeating even number. We have had recent periods of isolation/contemplation. Past relationships have included emotionally unavailable people and people we tried to save from self destruction.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)
I always have. Felt different... separate all of my life. Have had metaphysical experiences that I WAS NOT seeking. Always felt strong urge to right injustice and feel compassion makes a lasting difference. Also feel love can surmount/transform all things. I think we both try to reach out when an opportunity is present.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
Be careful what you wish for. Just kidding...in a way. While doing research, I see why one is advised to prepare. Because it happens unexpectedly. It is overwhelming. You are very confused/alarmed. In retrospect when separated you see how many mistakes you made with trying to respond like you have in past. Your twin flame very well may come in a physical package (to include age) that you will feel is beyond your comfort zone. AND If you separate quickly the pain/loss of interest for me, physical sickness, can leave you feeling as if you are in deep water and can't swim that well. I lost almost 20 pounds in a very short time after we became intimate. If I didn't see him for a few days and then I did..... Felt like 1000 butterflies took flight AT ONCE. If you have any defense mechanisms within, or you still approach intimacy with strategy instead of surrender these issues are revealed during separation. A different feeling calls for a different response. So look inward now. Or you will be like me... hoping for another opportunity. Yet having said that I believe all things encountered were necessary. Anything you harbor that needs confronted will be revealed. So go for it. Choose to be free and forsake all forms of bondage.
If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here?
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Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soulmate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?
I believe so. I remember him looking at me with a joy so strong it glowed on his face. I know I was not ready for others to know due to age difference. That alone is a lesson. Plus I have a close family member who would try to make me choose. That is not love and I have never loved myself well. As a result I have not been loved well by others. I had never saw joy on his face before. If/when given the opportunity I want to thank him. No matter the outcome. He jump started me back to life. It felt/feels good to look forward to a possibility of happiness. He definitely awakened me.
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What do you do to stay grounded in the here and now? From - Kristin and Jude
Haven't got there yet.
When you look into their eyes or make love, what do you experience? Kandice and Matt
Continuity.
Do you believe that you only can be happy when finding your twinsoul? Or...do you believe in other soulmates that we can share a happy life with? Cinderella Man and Capmoon
I don't know. That is difficult. I believe each love prepares you for one greater. So happiness is subjective to the level of happiness you are aware exists. Before him I had no idea how deeply I could experience expressions in my heart or body. So I would say yes.
Is there anything on our site that you would like to see? Persephone and Rosebud
Not at this time.
How have conflicts between the two of you affected your relationship? Pearl and Gloria
Well there are definitive challenges/ differences that have caused me to look inward. Our lifestyles are different, but I'm not sure either of us are true to ourselves in seeking personal fulfillment instead of being validated by making others happy. So I would say conflict brings opportunity for needed resolution.
How do you manage the intensity of your twin flame relationship. David and Margaret
Difficult still. I thought the forced separation would bring a stop to the madness. But this has been a very painful period in many ways but I feel it had to happen. Haven't got there yet. Too early.
What do you feel is your shared purpose? Did you know about twin flames before meeting? Do you plan to participate in twin flame events? Tracy and Don
Shared purpose? To be the catalyst that each of us needed to be our best as individuals so that each of us has the ability to love because hopefully this process will help each of us accept and love ourselves as we are without fear of rejection or reprisal.
What does the merging feel like? Anonymous Posting
LOL. Keep in mind this is still in infant stages. We were separated soon after we began "merging". I regret one reaction. I became afraid of the feelings it produced. I wasted time that I didn't realize wasn't guaranteed to always be available. I assumed. I wasted precious moments and time that cannot be replaced. Due to wrong thinking, not understanding the full value of the present moment, and taking the gift of time for granted. I realize now that this has been a pattern of behavior with the ones I love. That is how deeply intense some moments were. Each time was different. The first was like a joining so intense you went from not breathing to crying out. One merging was complete wild abandonment. Frenzied, forceful, primitive. Once later because of things that surfaced in between felt hurried like water being gulped. After the first time I was dumbfounded. I was like what just happened. How could it feel like that. Then I was almost mad because I realized how bad the other experiences were. Even the ones I thought were the best. Now I feel a little afraid. What if???? But deeper, I am still reaching for acceptance of a master plan. So instead of what if I never feel this way again I think what if I had went my entire life and never had this feeling? So you go from doubt/ frustration to gratitude.
How do you cope with the terrible emotional turmoil? Anon and Anon
Day by day. Moment by moment.
What makes you so sure you found your twin? Joanna and Albin
Good question. Hard to explain... but what else could explain an experience so instantly profound that defies description, contradicts what you use to believe, that is so puzzling you seek understanding because you have no prior knowledge and yet you discover a wealth of information to include signs, common variables, known responses, and this is after the fact.
How would you describe your spiritual beliefs....
Christian- non denominational
Are you artistic.................................................? Yes
Do you believe in reincarnation...................?
Free Form Comments - I would like to just add some additional insights I feel I have gained. I was brought up to have fundamental Christian beliefs. I have never actively questioned them. I have pursued understanding/ knowledge/ wisdom in my life. I have always challenged myself to eradicate judgement, jealousy, envy, and unforgiveness. I try to walk in love and not become weary of doing good. YET I have denied these same tender mercies to myself. I never believed in reincarnation but have no explanation of why I became so emotional after a past life reading that spoke to time spent in Atlantis ( a supposedly mythical civilization/ location in which I have always felt drawn), no explanation for two out of body experiences (First one I entered a Light so bright/ pure and was aware of presence of Jesus Christ which produced an awe akin to terror yet held no fear, Second involved an awareness that I was leaving my physical shell that in which my ears were ringing so loudly, chest felt heavy, and I was so afraid I made it stop only to fall into a lucid dream. I did research to attempt to find out what happened and I was shocked to find out it was well documented and some actually sought this to happen. I also was blessed to be filled with the Holy Spirit and gave evidence by speaking in tongues. I barely remember getting up off the floor. But I felt clean/ light like the first experience) The reading also said I spent one season as a close follower of Christ. That was the most moving and explained why I had such deep responses to his teachings/ crucifixion/ and resurrection. But I still struggle with reincarnation. Crazy. Then I meet Marco. Such a profound unknown territory. Is it possible or is it a mixture of conjecture/ projection. ( see there is that innate desire for logic/ intellect/ reason). Yet definition occurs AFTER the experience and not prior so as to shape my perceptions. I have been awakened. Resolved to be numb no more. So in the most favorable light of possibility I know this experience to be "real".
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From The USA Posted on 8/6/2011
