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Your Name/Nickname.........Amanda Age: 29 Sun sign... Scorpio
Country........................ USA State............S.D.
Occupation..................Student
Email contact................ dryamn1@hotmail.com
Your Twins name/nickname........Rob Age: 29 Sun sign.... Pisces
Country.........................USA State......... MN
Occupation..................Chef
Site Link.......................N/A
Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....)
I met Rob at a teenage party; he walked in the door with a girlfriend but we recognized each other immediately. It was an intense connection and feeling of love at first sight. I remember knowing him soo well like I knew him from the inside without words and it felt like him and I were never apart and just the best close friends, even though we did not communicate that much due to the fact that he had a date with him; it felt like I did not even need to talk to him though. It felt like he was never gone.
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?
Well there are soo many things I can try to discuss all of them. When we were young we were mutual friends in the same group of friends this was a group of us who were all very close and only spent time with each other in the group of about 9 of us. Well... back then, I knew these strange feelings or intuitions I had, but I knew nothing about twin flames. I never even heard of it! First of all I noticed an intuition every time I was around him a great feeling of oneness comfort and belonging; I called it the pull even though I had no clue how real that word was at the time. I also had a feeling that he was exactly like me in every way and thought I saw myself as a child when he would laugh or smile, a neat feeling! I just loved being near him and did not understand why. I never expressed my feelings for him as we were so young and childish, I just kinda brushed it all off as an unknown.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?
Well... when we were younger we never had any sort of physical relationship and we did not cross that line till age 20. After that we had a wonderful intimate friendship type of relationship for two years, but I could never understand why he would not call me his girlfriend or it even seemed like he was scared of getting too close and come to find out about it now, 10 years later he wanted to protect me from getting hurt by him as he did not want to give any fake commitments to me so I would not end up with a broken heart and his ways work well. He changed my life tremendously now at this point because we were not in contact for six years and just about eight months ago we connected yet again and had a couple of meetings and had a long distance relationship. The past eight months has been the most confusing; amazing; shocking; beautifully euphoric weirdest learning experience ever. In the beginning of this recent connection, I just thought I was going to see an old friend; boy was I blind at the upcoming events that would fallow. I started wondering what was between us and would say soul mates and I would say he was the one but I had no idea how real that all was, till I became the truthseeker that my blood intended me to be. I now know everything about everything; I actually have always wondered a lot more than most about all things bigger than us and I have always been very close to god I mean extremely spiritual and in wonderment of life and answers to all things people wonder about but never have answers to. Coupled with all this that I learned which started just from wanting answers to my connection with my twin; I found answers to a lot more things than expected. It eventually lead me to an awakening to Christ Consciousness which I used meditation and his connection to tap into my subconscious through a training course for twin flames on the internet.
Do you share many synchronicities together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us?
Yes, of course, we are exactly alike. I guess it's a bit scary how strangely the same we are and how we shared many same paranormal experiences together. First I can say that we are identical like real brother and sister; we have the same exact big beautiful blue eyes, same color of hair and same facial features. Well... were simply identical! We both have a passion for music and we both play the guitar; we enjoy singing and performing on stage and have done so together many times in our younger days. I was kitchen manager at a popular restaurant and he also cooked at a casino in a nearby small famous old western town we lived by and he is now a chef so we both love to cook professionally. He and I both have always had a strong faith in religion and the bible from a very young age like age 5 (first memory); we both share a memory of actually seeing god in the sky at age six, I mean I actually did see him it was amazing it made me cry; he spoke to me without words, but with feeling and the love I felt, it was overwhelming; he had the same experience. We share all the same personality, characteristics, morals, beliefs, attitudes and humor. Well... simply, we are exactly alike, but he's a man and I am a woman. I actually consider him the toughest and most manly man in the world; he's all boy; which makes sense to me because I am a very womanly woman, yet I have always been very girly. We are both sensitive, yet soo strong, we are both kids at heart.
If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here.
Well we never got together when we were teens and by the time we did start being physical, I was a young married mother of my first child. Needless to say my marriage ended quickly as I was infatuated by the new relationship I found myself in with my twin. After about two and a half years of a wonderful intimate friendship with my twin, his mom passed away and he and his dad decided to move away and he pursued his college success, I did the same here back home. I had two children went to college and got married for a second time to one of our mutual friends that we both knew from our group of friends as teens. I would say I would think of my twin about every year or so because although I was married, that couldn't change the fact that I felt like he was "the one", and I knew he was out there. We shared some mutual friends still and I would hear of him and how he was doing through our mutual friends. I actually just out of nowhere on Christmas night in 2010 was looking out the window into the sky at the cold night and moon and thinking of him and telling him how much I loved him and missed him. After that night it was strange because I found myself feeling in love with him again and thinking of him daily and wanting so badly to find a way to get in touch with him. It took me all of six months to actually ask our mutual friend to call him one night, we went out together and I got to talk to him for the first time in six years. I had no intentions of trying to see him, but I came up with this idea of going to the big city he lived in with our mutual friend, so we could all visit each other and go see a concert of one of my favorite bands. Our friend ended up not being able to go and at first I backed out too, but my twin asked me to come anyways alone and so I shortly decided to go ahead; I stayed in contact over the phone with him the twelve long weeks we had left. To wait to see each other was an intense rediscovery of old feelings. I tried to back out in fear so many times and he would talk me back into it; I was falling in love over the phone and so was he; it included all of the dynamics of typical twin flame unions for sure, drama!
Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.
When I was on vacation recently and staying with my twin, we were just sitting in his kitchen one night after just getting back from a fun night out on the town; we were sitting straight across from each other about eight feet away having an intellectual common conversation about paranormal out of this world things. We are constantly eye locked this whole time just talking, laughing and staring for at least two hours; when we stopped and I looked to see what time it was I was shocked because it was still 11:32 P.M. and I was trippin about that and asking him what happened and he just kinda acted like well... what do ya expect kinda; it was strange to me! He always knew what we were and the reality of it before I did; he never told me a thing; I did not find out until much after I arrived home recently. The eye contact is always constant and comfortable but this was the only time we lost time and space while just conversating. There are quiet moments of repose when we are near and we both can silently assess the connection and I feel his longing for closeness from me separate from my own; I have always been able to sense his longing for me. He can call me nearer with out a sound or even a look. Just yesterday he told me to stop calling him because he had a girlfriend and I was ruining it by texting all the time; I kinda blew it out of proportion and was pushing him to go on the internet and learn more so he could grow in his spiritual development. He is the "runner" and I guess I annoyed him to the point of no return, but I am sure he will come around someday and learn in his own time, the love is unconditional and limitless. I am confident that he will spend time learning on his own and at his own pace. I know we will someday make it to the last stage of harmonization. I know he can never forget and we share the same promise as engraved on our friendship dogtag necklaces that say "I could never forget".
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below.
Well it's obvious that we have been in previous lives together but from what I recall while I was awakening, we never recognized each other until this lifetime, but I know we have been circling each other for hundreds of lifetimes. He was always there.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion?
Well we met at a young age. I had a dream that I broke my i-pod a few weeks before I left on the airplane to go see him and when I woke up I was relieved because I love my music collection and listen to music a lot and at the airport I accidentally dropped my i-pod and it broke and was cracked and smashed in the exact same way as it was in my dream.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonacci Sequence as it relates to date/time?
Well each day we meet up or part over the last 13 years has been on the 22nd of June or July unexplainable. Always the 22nd after long separations.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)
Yes I definitely always felt special and I felt I knew I was far from the usual, but don't wanna go into how special I realized we are, as I don't know if it would be appropriate.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
This relationship is not what a typical relationship is like by far; it can be a love hate type thing at times and you will have no choice but to learn what real love is and real love does not possess or control each other, nor does it hurt and destroy each other. It might take decades like in my case to learn and grow to balance properly, but all is as it should be at all times and will work out in the end. Just live your life as you normally would and work on resolving your own psychology.
If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here?
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Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soul mate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?
My twin is the only reason why I have been awakened. I am soo grateful to him for being perfect without even knowing what he's doing.
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What do you do to stay grounded in the here and now? From - Kristin and Jude
It's difficult! I guess I just trust in the lord and know he is guiding my path on every little choice and movement and so I know everything is always okay.
When you look into their eyes or make love, what do you experience? Kandice and Matt
I have some guts to answer this one I guess. I feel like I am making love on a soul level and being touched and and touching someone else in such a profound and deeper way. The eye contact is constant and it's as if I am lost on a journey into blissful comfort and peace. Nothing else is in my mind... we are telepathically together in another world... the still mindflow means there is literally nothing in your mind going on, like you forgot existence. Time and space really have no meaning... it's just you are lost inside of someone and your not there.
Do you believe that you only can be happy when finding your twinsoul? Or...do you believe in other soulmates that we can share a happy life with? Cinderella Man and Capmoon
Twinsoul relationships are highly charged relationships and although it sets the stage for the ultimate pairing, it has a lot of ups and downs from the attracting and reverting happening at once, so it is not easy. Other relationships are much easier and can become great if you make them great.
Is there anything on our site that you would like to see? Persephone and Rosebud
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How have conflicts between the two of you affected your relationship? Pearl and Gloria
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How do you manage the intensity of your twin flame relationship. David and Margaret
Many of us probably don't get to be together until later in life because the ego issues present in one or the other or sometimes both, can cause many conflicts on their own. I find it worked better to give each other plenty of space and just have a friendship almost like a brother and sister closeness and respect, but not weird like a real brother and sister.
What do you feel is your shared purpose? Did you know about twin flames before meeting? Do you plan to participate in twin flame events? Tracy and Don
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What does the merging feel like? Anonymous Posting
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How do you cope with the terrible emotional turmoil? Anon and Anon
Be really strong and let the feelings and thoughts go or I would go crazy, and I have many times, but it just hurts my twin, and gets him worked up also, so I think of being stable for his benefit.
What makes you so sure you found your twin? Joanna and Albin
Everything! There is no doubt... you will just know. I really don't know how else to say it. It is hard to not notice. There are many signs and symptoms, but you will have to be mature and educated enough and in touch with the real reality to know what you know is not just something else and the real thing.
How would you describe your spiritual beliefs....
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Are you artistic.................................................? Yes
Do you believe in reincarnation...................? Yes
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UPDATE: 8/27/2012
Twin Flames Amanda and Rob Update 112211
I put a lot of thought into my choice as to weather or not I would post an update to our story.
I'm hoping someday my brother will see it as I'm sure it will unfortunately be the last words he will hear from me. Well, I guess its been a year and it seems like an eternity ago. I've done so much learning and lived a ton of that good ol' tribulation. I've felt as free and calm in my life like never before, yet I've felt soo alone. The last time I spoke with him I heard him say nobody understands this. To sample what life is like with the presence of my ultimate mate from the inner world and then have it disappear again is the greatest gift to be given to a person and lost. The loss - everytime I loose him is huge; I cant believe I contributed to pushing him away. The mirror effect played a huge role in the reunion like it always has. It was all divinely planned out and the synchronicities are endless; to many to count. I discovered a major reflection in the sword. It was as if the more I would pursue him and the answers I seeked the more he would push me back and with each rejection toward my bleeding heart from him, I was cut open slowly until I was fully exposed. I am now aware of why our relationship from the distant past was soo difficult for me, he didn't want me to bite and was successful in hiding it from me. I do not regret anything at all that has happened between us; he is the greatest blessing; I didn't know they could come into your life so bluntly. The emotional turmoil has been unbearable but is getting better and I never really lost my strength and will for life in the "here and now". I do know this is not a choice or like another relationship that ends and you move on, it is a lifetime commitment and I am married by God itself, the contract is valid for eternity. I have learned what the sacred heart is and also the meaning of the pink and blue rays. I know we have a shared purpose but just as the Sadducees we both may be to busy and caught up in our earthly lives to devote the time and energy into our higher calling and there's more reasons than what is obvious why twins keep their distance. I can't imagine living my whole life never seeing him again; I also hope and wish that someday I could have him in my life in some form. He is one of the most important things in my life, it would be nice to be able to send him a birthday card or say hello to him once awhile. I didn't know what was happening to me and needed his support and got silence in return and the situation escalated until communication was ceased. I just wished he would've been more in sync with where I was on the path and he may have understood more and been more supportive. He was ahead of me all our life until I woke up and I passed him by quickly. He is a difficult man or maybe he really isn't, but just for me being what I am to him. I can only hope he does the work he needs to do to balance this. I know the time is at hand and what is interstellar is difficult, confusing and powerful, but it can be done! It is better to wait for the one you really want than to settle for what's there. I refuse to "fake it out!" It's been him my whole life and will never change. I will gracefully accept any outcome and leave it in the hands of God. I smile with soo much gratitude that I'm even able to write this and he is alive and well. X marks the spot of the foundation, the infinity symbol. Every song we sing together still produces fruit beautiful in form, even from far away, a bond that can't be broken all through words unspoken, our love grows in faith. I could only wish everyone will see better someday, miracles happen in my life everyday! There is only one word to describe me afterwards: LOVE! Pure, perfect and true. I could never forget.
Twin Flames - Amanda and Rob
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From The USA Posted ~ 9/22/2011 or 112211
UPDATE: 8/27/2012 Click HERE
