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Your Name/Nickname.........Bella Age: 44 Sun sign... Scorpio
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Your Twins name........Beau Age: 48 Sun sign.... Capricorn
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Please tell us how you met? (Internet, store, vacationing, dancing, etc....)
18 years ago, my boyfriend (at the time) and I, had our dog go missing. We placed an ad in the paper offering a reward for his return. Beau's co-worker answered the ad and said that they found a pup matching our description wandering around their workplace. When we arrived to identify the dog, Beau and I were instantly drawn to one another. There was an instant attraction and an incredible connection between the two of us - an other-worldly familiarity. (The dog was not ours but I rescued him anyway).
A week or so later, Beau and I wound up randomly running into one another at a local bar and we had a very heart-felt chat that evening. He was in the process of ending his marriage and I was in the process of ending my relationship with my boyfriend. Because of our dysfunctional relationships, we wound up meeting at the bar more frequently as time went on and formed an even deeper connection. Even though there was very little physical contact, it wasn't long before we realized we were head-over-heels in love with each other. But there were many complications at the time. My boyfriend wasn't going to give up without a fight and eventually threatened Beau to stay away from me. There was a history for me, of some physical abuse so Beau decided to stay away so as not to bring me any further harm. And I had a few reservations about Beau as well. At the time, he enjoyed the indulgence of alcohol a little more than I was comfortable with so with very heavy hearts, we parted ways.
It was almost two years before I was finally able to end the relationship with my then boyfriend. He didn't make it easy for me to leave. But not long after ending that relationship, I met a man that I knew right from the start was my soulmate. He was and still is the kindest, supportive, loving and compassionate man I've ever met. We fell in love and over the next sixteen years, built a life together that was full of mutual respect, kindness and empathy. The only thing lacking was passion and common goals. We were, quite simply, the best of friends.
There did come a point, halfway through my relationship with my soulmate, that we ran into Beau. He was with his wife at the time as well. The reunion was very brief but there was an instant collision of emotions for both of us. I remember finding it very difficult to breath and he was clearly agitated at the time as well. It was a very powerful connection and an instant exchange of what I can only describe as unconditional love. We were both with someone else but in that brief exchange there was a flash moment where no one else existed and time literally seemed to stand still. It was very surreal and to this very day I will never forget the overwhelming emotions I experienced in that brief exchange. But at the same time, I realized that alcohol was still very much a part of Beau's life. And so I resided myself to believe I had made the right choice and once again, we parted.
In November of 2009, I decided to take my leave of my relationship with my soulmate. I needed to "find myself". I was feeling the effects of the lack of passion and wondered if our lack of common goals was hindering our growth. I moved very far away. For a year. During that time, I questioned my life and my purpose. I questioned my spirituality and my beliefs. I really worked on "me". We did stay in touch and gave ourselves some much needed space. But in the end, having believed I had done enough "inner work", I returned believing there was enough of a mutual bond between my soulmate and I to work things out.
Six months later, my life took an epic turn. Beau and I connected through FaceBook. He invited me to call him but I couldn't do it. Not right away. I instinctively knew that I was about to have my whole life turned upside down. It was days before I mustered the courage to call him. And what we found out, during that call, is what we have always known. That there was a deep and unbreakable connection between us. We discovered that over the eighteen years apart, we had thought about each other often, wondered what the other was doing and how life had fared for us both. We shared, we laughed and we also cried - well, it was mostly me that cried. Beau had the following to tell me:
Three and a half years ago, Beau almost died. His drinking was out of control and he wound up in the hospital. He was given a week (if that) to live. His liver and kidneys were shutting down and the doctors were all but resigned to the fact that he had very little time left. Beau was terrified. With that diagnosis, he began to pray. He was never a religious man, per se. Throughout his life, he believed in a higher power but never really gave it much thought. Suddenly he realized that he needed to muster all of his strength and make a plea to whomever might be listening to spare his life. That if given the chance, he would turn his life around and do right it. Through what can only be described as a miracle, he began to recover. To this day, his doctors have no idea how his life had been spared given the severity of his condition. But spared he was. And so once he recovered, he began a lengthy journey of rehab. Sadly, he was alone through most of it. His wife had thrown in the towel and decided to move on, but even through that, he vowed to get his life together and not allow himself to succumb to temptation.
Three and a half years later, he's alive, well and in the best condition of his entire life. Needless to say, once I heard what he had been through, I was a literal puddle. And so our communication began.
Ever since I returned home, I spent an awful lot of time alone because of my soulmate's job. And this was hardly the way to begin mending our relationship. But it was what it was.
So needless to say, I had quite a lot of time to catch up with Beau. And it wasn't long before we realized that there was something still so very much between us - always had been - probably always would be.
For months we spoke on the phone for hours at a time, every day. And for months, I resisted the temptation to see him. Eventually my conscience got the best of me and I decided I wasn't being fair to my soulmate. This was no way to mend our differences. So I asked Beau to stay away. I told him to give me space to figure out what I needed to. He agreed, not without saying what he felt in his heart, but genuinely wanted what was best for me and certainly didn't want to come between me and my soulmate.
I lasted two days before I found myself driving to meet him. I had to know. I had to answer all the questions that were bombarding me. I needed confirmation - one way or the other.
When we finally met, face to face again, I knew. Right there, on the spot, I knew. We both did. My body betrayed me and went into literal convulsions. Our embrace was eternal, our eyes probed depths unfathomable and our hearts were but a beat away from exploding. It was that powerful and that electric. Neither of us had ever felt what we were both experiencing. That day forever changed the course of our lives.
I am currently in the process of separating from my soulmate. It's difficult and bittersweet but I can't imagine my life without Beau now. He's done the work and he's changed his life and it just seems that all this time I was waiting for him - and him for I - for us to find our "inner being" and come into who we truly are. It was simply time. They say divine timing is everything. We think eighteen years is long enough!
Please tell us about those special things that draw you to your soulmate or twin flame?
Gosh, where to begin? Total trust and understanding. Knowing that one is not quite complete without the other ... not in a dependant way, but in a mutual knowing that we complete one another. That together we are a force we couldn't be apart. The knowing that no matter how distant, we're still right there ... connected by something so much more powerful than we even realize.
How has finding your soulmate/twin flame changed your life?
I don't even know how to answer this question. For me, it's not about how my life has changed so much as it is about how much my life has come together. There is a saying, "you can't miss what you don't know", but when you know something/someone is missing, how do you carry on without it? Naturally you can, but why would you want to? When you realize the "two halves become whole" theory, it's very difficult to resume a "normal" life missing the other half.
Do you share many synchronicities together? If so, please think of what they are and tell us?
Oh yes! We are quite literally twins, lol! He have the same Obsessive/Compulsive issues. Our closets are arranged exactly the same way. Our sense of humor is almost identical. We love the same songs and music. We have the same taste in decor and colors. We adore each other's quirks, because they're so very similar to our own. We finish each other's sentences and we are telepathically deeply connected. We seem to know exactly what is on the other's mind without a single word between us.
If you believe you have found your soulmate or twin flame but he/she doesn't know it or can't be with you due to certain circumstances, please tell us about your situation here.
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Below, list all strange phenomena, if any, related to time, increased psychic abilities, or feelings pertaining to how your partner is feeling when you are separated from one another.
We text each other at almost the exact same time when there has been a lag of time between communication.
We instantly pick up on each other's moods.
We know immediately when the other is "down" before any words are actually exchanged. I can "feel" him when he's not with me and he says he can feel the same.
Our "dropped call" techie issues are through the roof. Whether it be via cell phones, computer or land lines. Constant interruptions where no one else seems to have issues with either of our phones.
We currently have a lamp in his apartment that goes berserk every time he and I snuggle next to it. It's a touch lamp but whenever we are within a "touch" away, just embracing, it flickers from dim to medium to high then turns itself off. When we're not together it just goes on burning its' light normally, lol!
Do you and your partner have the feeling that this isn't the only lifetime you have spent together? If so, please tell us about it, below.
It's never really come up for us through conversations. And frankly, I don't really dwell on this sort of thing anymore. I'm trying to live more in the present more rather than dredging things up from the past. Although I do know, in my heart, on some level this must be true. I guess I'm just trying to spend more time in the here and now. What came before is irrelevant unless it's something we need to clear. So far that has not been an issue for us.
How would you describe your life up until the time you found your soulmate or twin flame? What is the last "big thing" to have happened to you prior to your reunion?
I believe my opening paragraphs explain most of this question.
Have you noticed any recurring themes in your relationships, ie..past karmic experiences that keep popping up or the numbers 11 11 and the Fibonacci Sequence as it relates to date/time?
I can't really say we've dwelled too much on the "past". And as far as karmic experiences go, I am sort of at that stage of my life where I believe we have already atoned for karmic experiences. That this time and space is for the here and now. That whatever karmic debts we had to repay have been dealt with. I can't speak for anyone else, but for me, this time/space continuum is no longer about paying debts, but more about learning to manifest in the here and now and letting go of past experiences. Lately, I see little value in dwelling on "what has been". For me, it's more about what is now. I do believe it's important to revisit past experiences if it helps us grow and move on NOW but it's equally important not to get stuck in the past.
Have either you, your partner or both of you together, had the feeling from a very young age that you were put here to fulfill a purpose for which you never received any specific instructions? (feelings of a spiritual calling, a higher call, or a greater purpose.)
I know I, personally have felt that I was sent here for a purpose. Truthfully, I'm still trying to figure out what exactly that is, in the grander scheme. I've had glimpses but seem to have been held back. Beau seems to feel that his medical experience and his journey has a lot to do with what becomes of the rest of his journey. And he and I both feel that there is something we are meant to "pass on" together.
What advice would you give to anyone out there who is either searching for their own twin flame or soulmate or is in the middle of one of these relationships?
My advice? Tough to answer because everyone's experience is so complex and vastly personal. But I guess the best advice is to always trust that there is a divine order at play. The timing is not always what we envisioned for ourselves, but in time, I think we do come to realize everything happens for good reason, for the good of ALL. For anyone that hasn't actually met their Twin Flame, I can only suggest to be absolutely clear and specific. "Know thyself". Be 100% sure of what or whom it is you're looking for. Be specific, get right down to minute details. Intent is everything at this point of our evolution.
If you were the webmaster of this site, what is one question you would ask, that you did not see here?
Nothing that I can think of at this time.
Do you believe that upon finding your twin flame/soul mate that one of you has awakened the other, so to speak?
For us, it has, very much, been mutual. While he's not as esoteric as I may be, we still speak the language. We just use different terms to describe the experience. But it's definitely been an awakening for the both of us. An awakening in different ways. I think the key is that there is an accelerated awakening for both when the Twin Flame energy is invoked. You suddenly see the world differently and respond as such. I don't think it's necessarily about one awakening the other, but how the culmination of both energies melds and radiates outwards.
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What do you do to stay grounded in the here and now? From - Kristin and Jude
Try and remove the ego. Remember it's all about unconditional love, positive reinforcement and mutual respect. Everyone grows at their own pace and we have to respect everyone's journey on the path.
When you look into their eyes or make love, what do you experience? Kandice and Matt
Complete immersion. It's like a divine dance of energies and being open and accepting of whatever rises up in the moment. For me, it's total trust and submission. And for a controlling Scorpio, that's never been easy, LOL!
Do you believe that you only can be happy when finding your twinsoul? Or...do you believe in other soulmates that we can share a happy life with? Cinderella Man and Capmoon
First and foremost, we have to find happiness within. Find our own "soulmate" within. If we're looking to someone else to fill that void, we're still not "there yet". It's not necessarily about completion, but about vibrational match. When we vibrate to our highest capacity, we attract the same energy.
Is there anything on our site that you would like to see? Persephone and Rosebud
Nothing comes to mind at this time.
How have conflicts between the two of you affected your relationship? Pearl and Gloria
For us, when conflicts arise, it's time to look n the mirror. What about our conflicts are mirroring what we need to work on individually? If I'm pointing the finger, do I realize there are three more fingers pointing back at me? What is the conflict there to teach me? Us? It's a process, for sure. And a time to get real with what's really going on ... outside of the conflict. The conflict is simply a catalyst to further growth.
How do you manage the intensity of your twin flame relationship. David and Margaret
In a word? Patience. For sure. As well as kindness, compassion and unconditional love.
What do you feel is your shared purpose? Did you know about twin flames before meeting? Do you plan to participate in twin flame events? Tracy and Don
Our shared purpose. I don't think we've figured that out yet. But I suspect we will. I love the idea of radiating a love that others feel as well, and inspiring others to aspire to the same energy and intensity. I suppose we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. And yes, I did know about Twin Flames. Not during our first meeting, eighteen years ago, but definitely before we met this last time.
What does the merging feel like? Anonymous Posting
Waves of love is the only way I can describe it. It's as if you are able to take all of your inhibitions, all of your fears, all of your doubts and they're all washed away until there is nothing left but pure love and complete trust. It's complete freedom.
How do you cope with the terrible emotional turmoil? Anon and Anon
With trust. Complete and unabashed trust.
What makes you so sure you found your twin? Joanna and Albin
When you no longer have to ask, "is this it?". You just know.
How would you describe your spiritual beliefs....
Open and non-denominational
Are you artistic.................................................? Yes
Do you believe in reincarnation...................? Yes
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